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February 28th, 2006


08:23 am - Hello Is This Thing On?
Wow! It has been a long ass time since I've used my livejournal. Like I come on it but I never get around to adding an entry. So much has happened between my last one and this one. However, I do not feel like going into details because there are just too many. The short of it is...I was happy, then I wasn't, and now I'm somewhere in the middle.
I'm really worried about one of my close friends. I don't think they are doing what they should be. I am scared something will happen to them and I don't want anything to. I mean I love and care about this person! Why would they do that thing that isn't good for them. I know they can't help it but still.
(yes that was about one person)

Lisa is moving in a few months. E-money probably won't be living here for awhile and Clint is...well I'm not sure but it sounds like he's moving too. Suz is dead to me. SO I guess I'll be on my own.

FUN...not!
Current Mood: confusedconfused

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November 30th, 2005


10:30 pm - I didn't even realize you were dead...wierd
I don't even know why I have a crush on him...he's not a good person. Fun yes...and he can be sweet when he wants to be, but overall he's a dick. Fuck him...
Yesterday I saw him with the chick and I felt a little sad but then Suz, Dan, and George came over so I got excited. George is like the cutest thing ever. We all went to Henryton and George was scurred so I held his hand...then I got shocked by a telephone pole...it was AWESOME! (actually I felt pretty dumb) but whatever!

Erica comes home in less than a month...Merv does not get her the whole time damnit...or I WILL KILL!!!






~the end~
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: not that social ~ von bondies

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November 26th, 2005


01:15 pm - Blooobity Bloobity Bloo Bloo Bloo....
You scored as Goth. Your A Goth!

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Goth

50%

Emo

25%

Prepy

20%

Rocker, Mosher

20%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

10%

Skater

5%

Trendy

0%

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
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You scored as wedges.

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wedges

100%

nite heels

83%

boots

67%

sneakers

50%

what shoe are you??? *girls only* PIX!!!! from BABYPHAT.COM
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You scored as damn i love your ghetto ass..

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damn i love your ghetto ass.

100%

yeah yeah urrrr ghetto

92%

your not ghetto sorry... try again.

17%

how ghetto are you????
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You scored as Platforms. u scored platforms because ur a groovy chick that knows how to have a good time. smoke a little mary jane and go out and get down with the gang. u keep rockin it 70's style babe! sweet.

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Platforms

70%

Stilettos

60%

Converse

50%

Flip-Flops

40%

Etnies

30%

Ballet Flats

30%

Nike Shox

0%

What kind of shoe are you ??
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You scored as Homeless. Poor you

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Homeless

67%

Jail bird.

50%

Really creepy teacher

17%

What will you be when your older?
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Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: pills ~ dandy warhols

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November 24th, 2005


01:22 pm
MMMkay...I think I'm going to go back on my meds. I feel as if I am better off being on them. I feel more controlled on them, right now I feel like HJUISGBHJIAGHJIJGJGHJIG;Ahiuj hiod'afj'sdfpjdsokfjvdskgnkfdhiodfh...and we can't have that now can we!
People are wierd. People are shady...I guess there's nothing I can do about it but just take it as it comes...I miss them *frowns*
Friday is Brit's berfday and I am going to rock her world...YAY!


I'm done now...PEAce out BEETCHES!
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: zerospace ~ kidneythieves

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November 22nd, 2005


11:25 pm - We're entering bat country...
Drugs make people shady...
I am shady,
some of my lovies are shady...
It's crazy!!!!!

Why can't people just do them and have fun. Why must it turn into shadyness?
I just don't understand...


Damn the drugs...damn them




"I don't do drugs, they do me..."~ the late L-money KirkenCarroll



next time i drink i should pour some out for tay tay and his locked up ass...

MUWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: secret agent man

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November 21st, 2005


12:17 am - Now I'll tell you how I really feel...
Alright...so here is how it goes, certain people are upset with my don't give a shit attitude...they don't get why I don't care...so I'm going to explain it on here so some people can have an understanding.

First of all,
I take high school as a joke, I take life as a joke. I'm a mere 18 years of age...Which means that I have not been on this earth a long time so I am still young. I am not an adult...all I can do is purchase porn and ciggarettes.

High school is in fact a joke, sure you need to pass, that much isn't why its a joke, the drama is the joke. So what if some people think I'm gay...that doesn't bother me, So what if some people find me annoying, So what if so and so hates me, It's fucking highschool. Majority of the relationships have now are not neccasarily going to be around after graduation.
Oh and it was brought to my attention that Kaila hates me...Big fucking deal...I never viewed her as a buddy just someone to do drugs with occasionally...no fucking loss there.

Apparently I also scare away hot chicks with my gayness...Oh fucking well, I'm not gay so that affects me in no way...plus my friends are pretty damn cute and they are wrong...they have bad taste not me.
I mean take me for example...I am not cute, they have told me that I am but it is all lies.

I'm really getting sick of Clint while I'm bitching about things I feel like I should get this out in the open. Anthony is okay but I'm sure that he talks shit about me...I'm sure they both do. I don't give a shit...but what I am sick of is that he feels the need to tell me how much i suck all the time...in fact i don't know why i put up with it...he used to not be like this...its like recently that he's been a dick to me. I was immune from his dickness but now it has spread...
He also feels the need to call me a dyke every five seconds...

the other day he was really mean and then apologized and said he didnt mean any of it but he is full of shit. he cant blame everything on being bi polar..
i wish i could just say fuck them but because i stupidly alienated the girls i now have no one but drugs...so yay for drugs!


on a happier note...i hate to say this, it'll sound cliche and/or pathetic but i mean it and i need to get it out...i need fucking help
i think im trying to kill myself or hurt myself to the point where i just say fuck it.
I hate being me. I'm fucking done...
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: my metro card ~ le tigre

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12:15 am - Life Is Short
When it doesn't rain it snores
Yeah the cookie crumbles but in who's hand?
All things said and all things done
Life is short

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done...life's too short

Ooooh could this be....
Ooooh could this be the day I've waited for?

Another door to peek in through
The floor is filthy
But the couch is clean
At the end of the day
That's another day gone
Life is short....Ooo life is short

Ooooh
Could this be....
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...

Oh I am young but I have aged
Waited long to seize the day
All things said and plenty done
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
But life is short

Ooooh
Could this be...
Ooooh
Could this be the day I've waited for?

Ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba...

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12:07 am - Only The Girl
my love's an ice-cold latte
and it's running down yer shirt.
you took my little heart
and then ya threw it in the dirt!
i won't go near yer locker
and i cannot wash my hair.
i can't believe you betrayed me
and filled me with despair!!

i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me.
i am only the girl who was in love with you
but, now you lied!

i have developed frog-eyes
from crying all the time.
i won't go out and skate with my friends,
i'll only stay inside.
you ran around, behind my back
with a pretty, blue-eyed girl.
i am so sick of missing you -
i think i'm gonna hurl!!

i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me.
i am only the girl who was in love with you.
but, now you lied!

i can't believe you lied to me:
i can't believe you!

(i am only the girl who was in love with you)

i can't believe - horrible truth about you
because you lied to me
i am only the girl who was in love with you
but, now you lied to me...

[bif:] [sportin' the "x"s on her hands] self-discipline requires doing
what is necessary, when it should be done,
whether it iz a pleasant task or not. a straight-edge lifestyle is personal choice.
if my coffee consumption ain't straight-edge enough for you:
then **** me with a double, skim cappuccino!

[bif:] um: hellooooo!! get a ******* hold of yourself!!
no complaining!! are you starving?
no? then let's have a little perspective, shall we. see a therapist.
switch to decaf. lay off the pills.
try some stretching.
take five.
have a time out.
write it down.
make a painting.
have a hot bath.
quit hanging onto past hurts.
forgive all to get over all and get on with it!
puh-leeeze! develop some humor.
laugh it off.
yuk it up.
don't be mean.
karma is instant.
there is no coincidence.
live today. try - ok?

[bif:] [crying] ring pa ambulansen.

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November 17th, 2005


09:18 pm - Makes no damn sense!
The dumb bitch posted $350 bail on his junkie ass. That upsets me because it's exactly what she said she wasn't going to do. He's not good to her!
I hope when he has to go to court that they lock him up for awhile. She is so stupid!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGG!

p.s: i'm also jealous because she got to see one of our old friends and i didnt...dumb bitch.

I'm in such a bad mood now!

I mean...I do cut her some slack though because I'd probably do the same if my boyfriend got locked up...BUT STILL!








PEOPLE ARE GAY!
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: not that social ~ von bondies

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November 16th, 2005


10:12 pm - Boys suck!
Hit and run by love
But broken less than i ask for
Just another crease
Another bump to pass by,
A bruise to heal

I've gotten the wouldn't you rather be friends
I guess that could make sense
If we hadn't kisses
If you hadn't made me feel like I
Could never be missed

Let on by love and crushed by love
Well, it's nothing to cry for
I'm not the first to be lied to
A tainted heart, rancid lust
Never should, never said
Never felt sorry

Everlasting love
Turned out to be nothing
Ha- its rather bleak-yeah
But i've been sucker punched
One hell of a lot

Let on by love and crushed by love
Well, it's nothing to cry for
No, i'm not the first to be lied to
A tainted heart, rancid lust
Never should, never said
Never felt
Sorry for falling in love
A one night off and I wanted more
But I never felt, never said
Never been sorry
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: twitch ~ bif naked

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